Anxiety and depression were a constant hurdle Amanda Yanez battled due to the mental, emotional, physical, and sexual abuse she endured. A wide variety of creative arts were Amanda’s saving grace during her adolescent years and her way of dealing with the trauma induced shame and guilt she carried. Amanda has been healing by releasing herself of unhealthy expectations, creating healthy boundaries and reestablishing intimacy on her terms. “I want to lead by example,” she shares.
Amanda Yanez is a creative director, musician, songwriter, poet and the Creator & Host of Sup’ SA Podcast. She’s also a Montessori Teacher and mother of two. As a Girl Scouts of America Legacy Leader and Scout Leader, she impacts young girls in her community encouraging them to be strong, smart, and kind.
“I was groomed to think that I had seduced my perpetrator and I was only 5.”
On this episode, Veronica Villegas opens up for the first time about her sexual, mental and emotional abuse she endured over the course of 12 years as a child. She shares the uphill battle she faced as she struggled finding the family support she needed after finally speaking out. We discuss the chaotic aftermath. and the various healing modalities she still uses to manage the long-term effects Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder left behind on her MIND and BODY. Aside from her innocence and sense of safety being taken, she also endured additional psychological abuse after being adopted at the age of 10. Not having mentally and emotionally stable caregivers at a young age, only added to the layers of healing she now works through as an adult. “Healing is a process…you do the best you can each day.” She credits a lot of her progress to her supportive husband. “He’s been my angel.”
Veronica Villegas, M.A, M.Ed, LPC-Intern has worked in the social services field in various capacities for the past 14 years. She currently works as a Family Specialist for the Northeast Independent School District in San Antonio, TX. She has a Bachelor’s degree in Psychology, a Masters in Guidance and Counseling and a Masters in Special Education. She’s also a Reiki Master Practitioner and is currently applying to a Doctoral program that combines psychology and integrative healing. “I hope to integrate my personal and educational, as well as professional experience to help others embark on their own journey of healing.”
Due to the #metoo and #timesup movements “Robyn with a Y”, was compelled to create The Peak, a safe non-judgmental space where individuals could speak about sexual experiences that were consensual and safe, and the ones that weren’t. We cover the importance of consent, autonomy and bodily agency. With all the sexual misconduct surfacing publicly she said, “I realized many were worried and scared that sexual health and happiness were impossible goals.”
She’s also a part of the LGBTQ community and shares the prejudices many face when it comes to sexual identity and expressing themselves. Unhealthy narratives have been imposed on men and women and Robyn’s addressing them maturely.
“I knew I needed to forgive and let go, for me and for him.” – Justin Bustamante
Justin Bustamante was manipulated and sexually abused by an older woman, and a male family member during childhood. As young man he entered the Marines and suffered additional trauma. The PTSD he faced jump-started his healing journey and a new career path. He shares with host Janie Terrazas, the powerful story of his perpetrator reaching out to make amends, and the compassion he was able to extend due to his therapy work. “I knew I needed to forgive and let go, for me and for him.” Justin’s mission is to live out his best self and teach others how to do the same. “I’m here to help those who desire to overcome mental, emotional and/or physical pain, so they can live optimally in the present.”
Justin Bustamante is United States Marine Corps Veteran and is the founder of Trance Form SA. He works as a Neurolinguist, Sub-Communication Specialist and Conversational Hypnotist. His methods break negative thought-loops and patterns of behavior by helping his clients develop new neuro-cortical pathways. “The goal is to teach others how to organize their conscious thoughts to achieve better life results. It’s healing at a deep somatic level.” Justin specializes in PTSD and pain management. TranceFormSA.com
“I felt I was useful when people were using me.” – Charles Bailey
Charles Bailey understands why so many men are angry and depressed, and why often times they become abusive, or end up attracting abusive partners. He courageously opens up to host Janie Terrazas about his toxic childhood and marriage. They talk about the various forms of abuse he endured at the hands of his addict parents, the foster care system, and his ex-wife.
Charles also discusses the sexual shame and low self esteem he carried for most of his life. “My pent up trauma caused me to make unhealthy decisions that lead to more suffering.” Therapy and anger management classes helped jumpstart his healing journey and inspired him to leave his abusive marriage. He now inspires others to rise above their pain, so they can learn to love themselves and create healthy relationships. “We must learn how to mindfully express, process and release negative emotions, so we can live authentically and peacefully.”
Anger Management Specialist, Charles Bailey, faced various forms of extreme abuse throughout his childhood and adult life. He never had a solid male role model to guide him, and most of the females he grew up with were also toxic. He has had to learn how to love, heal, nurture, and rebuild himself. Although it hasn’t been an easy road he realizes his pain was meant to serve a greater purpose. He now helps others who are ready to free themselves of their pain.
“I held on to so much pain because there was no one to talk to.” – Joseph Brooks
Joseph Brooks is one of the many men who is bravely coming forth and speaking out about his trauma. He shares with host Janie Terrazas, for the first time publicly how he was sexually and physically abused throughout his childhood by various caretakers, including male and female family members. Aside from sexual victimization he was also tormented and bullied at school. When his father died at a young age he began to spin into a deep depression. “I held on to so much pain because there was no one to talk to. I projected my anger and resentment onto women…in my view they were a source of pain.”
He began to abuse alcohol to numb the pain, but it only worsened his depression and rage. After a failed suicide attempt he spiraled down further and eventually hit rock bottom. He said he had a void in his heart and hole in his chest until the grace of God transformed him. Now he ministers to others who have experienced this darkness.
Bio: Since 1986, Joseph has worked in the health and fitness industry. He’s the owner of Next Level Personal Training and is involved in his community as a pastor and motivational speaker. He’s been a supporter of several women’s empowerment events and non-profits, such as the LUYA Women’s Conference and Trinity Grace Fellowship. He’s the creator of “The Value of a Woman” Seminar, and is a regular on “REAL TALK/REAL MEN”. Joseph created the S.T.R.O.N.G.E.R. Anti-Bullying program for the youth of San Antonio, and BABS (Be Alert Be Safe) a self-defense program for women. Additionally, he’s the author of “The Fast & Pray Diet” 21-days to a Breakthrough. Joseph has been trusted by celebrities, physicians, parents and seniors to help them achieve overall health and well-being. Contact: email@example.com
Sexually abused for 10 years by several family members from the age of 2, Diamante Lavendar has faced horrible hardships, yet she’s managed to turn her pain into purpose. Diamante shares with host Janie Terrazas her trauma was buried so deeply that it was eating her alive. “I didn’t realize I was re-victimizing myself.”
Later in life, two of her daughters tragically died. She shares how writing, and her faith, helped her deal with loss, grief and anger. Now she helps others overcome their pain and heartache, so they too can love and live fully.
Diamante Lavendar is the author of two award winning books entitled, Breaking The Silence and Poetry and Ponderings. Both books are based on her life and speak of finding hope and healing after abuse and loss. Diamante recently published her third book entitled, Finding Hope In The Darkness Of Grief. She wrote this book after the death of her daughter a year and a half ago. It’s a book of poetry and prose that contains her award winning art.
Diamante’s work is an exploration of the human soul, a traversing of situations that life throws at us. She’s always been intrigued by the ability to overcome and move on to bigger and better things. She writes to encourage hope and healing. Diamante believes that everyone should try to leave a positive mark on the world, to make it a better place for all. Writing is the way that she is attempting to leave her mark-one story at a time.
Joyous Windrider Jimenez opens up to host Janie Terrazas about the sexual abuse she faced at the hands of her father and all the ways it robbed her of her voice as an adult. The multiple violations and the isolation she endured over the course of her childhood and adult life was a lot to bear, yet she’s managed to find her way out of the dark.
Writing has been a healing outlet for her to express the wounds left behind. Joyous understands to fully recover victims must regain their voice and reclaim their bodies. Her work titled: These are the Things I Never Told You, gives you a glimpse into the world of a traumatized child who’s voice is ignored and silenced.
Joyous Windrider Jiménez is a multi-disciplinary artist, poet, educator, and mother of one son. She’s been gathering the lost pieces of her identity and voice for many years, and has found the healing power of the arts to be an integral part of that work. She is a explorer of emotional landscapes, a gatherer of new experiences, and a natural born dreamer. She, along with poets Mandy Lynn Lara and San Juana Guillermo, co-founded Raise The Whisper, a collective of survivors cultivating healing from the effects of family rape and sexual abuse. FB @JoyousWindriderJimenez #RaisetheWhisper
San Juana Guillermo dives deep with host Janie Terrazas into the shadows of family incest. Throughout most of her childhood, and young adult life, she was molested, harassed, raped and abused by men she knew. She discusses the cultural toxic masculinity that is deeply embedded within her family dynamic, and why most incest victims remain in a state of helpless silence.
Her powerful poetry, which has been her source of healing, exposes the nightmares she had to face as a child. She now supports and encourage others to come of out hiding through Raise the Whisper, an organization that uses the arts to help victims of sexual abuse.
San Juana Guillermo is the 2nd of 12 children. She married and moved to Grand Rapids, MI where she raised her 5 children. She is a grandmother to 13 grandchildren, and 2 great-grandchildren. Ms Guillermo wrote her first poem at the age of 60 and now 6 years later, she has had poems published in St. Sucia, The Tejano Conjunto Festival magazine, chapbooks by Jazz Poets of San Antonio and Voces Cosmicas. She, along with poetesses Joyous Windrider Jimenez and Mandy Lynn Lara, are co-organizers of Raise the Whisper, a group that is dedicated to giving a voice to family rape survivors through the arts. Ms. Guillermo is working on an autobiography and a poetry book.
Lina C. openly discusses the abandonment wounds she had to endure as a child after her mother divorced her father. She shares the impacts of growing up with a heartbroken alcoholic father, in a toxic male dominated environment. The rejection and neglect led down a destructive path of self hate, which caused her to attract a string of abusive relationships.
“I didn’t realize how disconnected from the sacred feminine I was.” Lina shares. She has been dedicated to her healing journey. Now she’s using her music and poetry to shine a light on her pain in hopes to encourage others to come out of the dark. “We can’t have shame when we bring it into the light.”
Lina C. Poet, Singer-Songwriter, Event Host, Filmmaker, Literary Editor, Radio Content Producer for Night Moves: Exploration of Contemporary Sexuality. She will release her first album “Love Renaissance” later this year, along with her first poetry book, Walking on Oceans”. Follow her on Instagram @lina.cee
Love Alchemist Mia Saenz shares with host Janie Terrazas the wide range of trauma she faced throughout her childhood which led to a major breakdown and breakthrough.
From an abusive mother, to suffering sexual abuse at the age of six, and her father dying at a young age…she’s overcome it all. She even endured an accident that left her immobile and almost took her life.
Mia passionately shares how the power of self-love and free will can transform trauma, and the overall quality of your life.
Mia Saenz is a Love Alchemist. As a 3rd generation Metaphysical Practitioner, Mia learned the wisdom of healing and prayer from her well known Grandmother. Mia is the Self-Love Teacher for anyone who feels alone and yet dreams of knowing the joy of a love-soaked life.
Through her work as a Love Teacher & Coach, Mia has discovered the depth of love on all levels. “Love truly is the Gold the Alchemists were seeking. Working through love changes the energy of your story and opens the connection to have all of life’s purposes flow, which includes Love, Money and Abundance.” Mia works with people whose desire is to grow in their spiritual path building a concrete foundation in all areas of life. She teaches “Love Mastery”, and the “Spiritual Elite” with Mystics and their natural gifts. In addition, Mia is also a media host, and is the Founder and Editor-in-Chief of BellaMia magazine a transformational & holistic living well magazine.
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